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sometimes the more someone emphasizes on a particular topic, the more he doesn’t mean it.
my eye stings. my head spins and my heart hurts. looking at the past just makes my insides turn. insomniac in the house. i guess i won’t sleep tonight.if i thought it would be different this time round, i might be wrong.
i’ve said goodbye to many things, many people in these recent years. i said goodbye to someone i thought i’d be with for a very long time. I said goodbye to lives i could have impacted. goodbye to a lifestyle i could have regretted. i said goodbye to friends i love dearly. as i type and think, i realise i use what-ifs/could-haves a lot. what if i did things differently? what if i hung on? several pictures ran through my head and i thought i must have gone crazy if i continued. i should get over the past. but what if the past refuses to leave me alone? what if i don’t feel like saying goodbye?
then i learnt, if i had been more thankful for what i had, things might have turned out differently. then again, should i be held solely responsible for all that’s happened? some people think i’m cynical. i don’t believe, i cannot trust. i think too much, i don’t deny. in fact, i can’t stop thinking, i keep questioning. in yet another way, i believe i’m a realist. it is only because i think, i come to a realistic conclusion all the time. i think realistically. i analyze and i don’t want to regret. is there any wrong in that?
this is the bad thing about staying up too late. it messes up with my sanity. speaking of which, has long left me.
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